Excerpt From What I Wrote Yesterday
Friday, 4 November 2011 08:42
I really have no desire to continue writing this story. I mean I love what I’m writing, but I just can’t get into what I’m supposed to be writing. The beginnings of this story are boring. If it’s boring to me, it’s going to be boring to others. That’s just how it works. How can I be content to write something that I know is boring? How can I think that it’s okay? Why did I start this?
Well, I know why I started this. I’ve wanted to be a writer since I learned to read. I wanted to inspire another person to love to read, just as the authors that I grew up loving to read inspired me. I want to make the world a little bit more full of love by writing something sweet and sappy.
So, I can do this. I will do this. I will find my inner Yoda and try, try, try and write. Because, damn it, I deserve to do this writing thing. As Chris Baty put it, “The world needs my story.”
Well, eventually. First, I have to get through the bullshit parts I hate to write, so that I can get to the good stuff. The good stuff means that freaking fracking dream sequence.
I will never get this novel completed if Josh doesn’t start just SLEEPING and stop kicking and squirming and scratching. He is seriously starting to just drive me up the freaking wall. I just need some time to write. I’m sorry if I can’t write during the day. I just can’t do it. Deal with it. Now go the fuck to sleep already.
I’m not getting anything done with him constantly squirming and dancing around. He needs to just SEE someone already about it.
Yeah, I had a bit of an emo problem yesterday while writing.